**BEING SUED!!?** grocery hall, chit chat!
Feb 7, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnuPwJjg2Sw

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let's do this
I got not for me but the kids I got two
of bronies because I did not realize my
kids love brownies I got this from
Costco they don't it was they actually
eat it like a snack I picked up two
boxes of the butterworth pancakes reason
I did that is because I don't know how
how much you guys know about like frozen
breakfast stuff but they have pancakes
pre-made pancakes but it's like four
dollars or something for 28 small
pancakes well I got this whole box which
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it says 17 servings what that supposed
to mean but there's no 17 stories there
basically it can make yeah I don't know
how many it doesn't say how many it can
make but I can make definitely more than
what I would get from like the frozen
packages and I make them homemade are
not homemade but with this okay yeah
okay
he's explaining himself uh get off my
bed off I picked up I got two of these
pre-made solitons salad is salads for me
because
I'm gonna try and do more like the
solids and stuff like that so if we pick
up one and I like this one because this
one has the lettuce shredded carrots and
red cabbage and so I already have my
dressing so I didn't have to get that
thing up till the slice cheese we use
that for the breakfast sandwiches and
for the kids I got a pack of gogurts
because I put them in the freezer and
this is what my kids eat as like an ice
cream I have done that since my babies
were babies we are going to go to a
store tomorrow and get a box of the big
the big soft pretzels that you get from
like movie theaters things like that and
so hold on hold on hold on so I picked
up three cans of just regular cheddar
cheese because we could put this in the
containers and they could dip their
pretzels in it so I did pick up three
cans of that I picked up five cans of
regular smooth restaurant beans hold on
and this is to make just right regular
bean burritos
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here is another box of that breakfast
the pancakes I picked up - with toppings
because I picked up and I'll show you I
picked up multiple packs of these and I
know these ones are this one's
sugar-free 470 calories per serving so
70 calories for one but that's okay
because then this is 25 calories for two
tablespoons so for under 100 calories I
can have a treat when my family's having
like the brownies and cakes and all that
good stuff I picked up this big bad boy
because what I'm gonna do is make
smoothies so what I do is I just put it
in my Vitamix which is my blender and it
crushes the ice down to like snow and
pink I'll put it in the sink and then
what it does is I put the eye or the the
orange juice over it and I add a little
bit of just a little touch just a tad of
vanilla and it makes it like an Orange
Julius for the kids so I got that and
that was something I know the kids like
I did pick up a box of the pre-made
waffles which I just noticed that you
can actually make this with waffle mix
too so I might try that but they didn't
this time around okay so the next thing
that I got is a thing of the tortillas
which is that's what I was saying that I
bought the
the smooth beans and then that creep
told me I'm gonna put like some cheddar
cheese on it and stuff and just make
bean burritos for the kids cuz they like
it so I got here a circle put these on
the counter I got two two things of
bananas go put them on the counter okay
go put it on the counter go put it on
the counter first please and I picked up
this I'm gonna try this um I'm really
skeptical but I'm gonna try this and
it's zero calories but what I want to do
with it is I actually want to buy a
seltzer water and put this in it and I
was gonna do slack but I want to try it
um worst-case scenario you just had it
in water the kids can drink it I can
drink it okay Doritos nacho cheese what
I'm going to do is I'm not gonna do a
whole bunch I will just use what the
serving is and I'm gonna crunch it up
and just put it over a salad so that
it's kind of like a taco salad um like I
said I am doing loaf zero to low carb
meaning I will still do car but it will
be very low in carbs but it's not like
I'm cutting them out a hundred percent
please don't forget wrong like always
started that he was like why hey you're
doing zero carb I'm like I never said
I'm doing 100% zero I mean I did say
that but I also made it very clear it's
low carb this jello and these ones are
90 calories okay I need you to move
please this ones are sugar-free ones
only five calories per one and I'll put
Cool Whip on that as well cuz those are
nice soul treats this one is banana
cream and these ones are 90 calories so
those will be a little over
but I'm still okay with it like I'm
honestly okay with it
butter scrub butter squash butterscotch
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I got give me the bags
give me they give me that back give me
that back
give me that back yes hold on okay and
then I got three bags of my raw veggies
and last but not least I got to the pain
of serene cheese and those are good for
at nighttime if I'm just eating a little
bit of something I can grab a scream
scream string cheese or for the kids
so anyways okay I am gonna go and put
this always and smug kids are opening
everything and I will get back to you
guys in a minute okay really quick I
wanted to show you guys before was so
wild back this has been a while while
back so you may not even know or
remember um I got on a kick of the zero
vitamin waters I was finding them at
Walmart but there was very only a few
what like one or two flavors maybe and I
think there was like two of each flavor
so I picked up what I got cuz I realized
that it was zero calories and now I
don't watch the carbohydrate in that
type of stuff which it is 1 1 % and then
sugar is 1 gram but I don't really look
at that part so much as its zero
calories well anyway so I have found
these and okay fridge fridge
front fridge back fridge um I started
looking for these and honestly every
time I go back to Walmart
I couldn't not find them nowhere nowhere
they were just nowhere to be found but
tonight I was at the window when I was
doing my grocery shopping and lo and
behold I found my brothers and they had
multiple flavors
I was so darn excited like yeah when you
want something of a flavor you know it's
just it's nice to have once in a while
and so I did it and I found it so I got
this one is zero vitamin water blueberry
pomegranate Aki okay butchering the name
this one is also vitamin water zero and
it's mixed berry this one looks really
good and I got three three of those for
some reason I only got it
Oh No hold on a minute hold on hold on
I'm off okay so I got one two three okay
I got three of the blueberry pomegranate
I you know and it was weird cuz I was
like I thought I got three of each of
them but I'm only seeing one of the
dragon fruit which is really weird
because I know I like the dragon fruit
so I don't know why I only got one of
those but we know where they're our now
vitamin water zero revived fruit punch
and I got three of those
and then last but not least I didn't get
three of this one either which I kind of
knew that one this is a Soviet so this
is a different brand but this is a soapy
water Fuji apple pear I love this oh my
gosh I love this one but I only seen two
so I described what they had but there's
there the stack same price as the
vitamin waters and then I also picked up
a regular bottle of water this is just
electrolyte Sports formula body armor
sports water but I liked the lid on it
and so that's why I picked this up and I
can also put this in it so yeah that's
what I got so I hope you guys enjoyed
watching my little shopping haul I told
you guys I'm not doing many shopping
hauls but when I do a grocery shop I
guess I'll show you those ones hey you
guys good morning good afternoon good
evening and good morning once again
because you know what yesterday I did
not do a vlog I did not do a vlog for
the first time well no this is the
second time but I'm still putting
something up there because I cannot not
do it for you guys I love you guys too
much to not do that but yesterday was a
very very rough day for me I just was
really struggling emotionally you know I
I have to figure out my footprint you
know and I have to figure out what and
where I am gonna stand with the things
that I go through on a daily with in my
you know like with the channel and you
know with life in general sorry I look
like a hot minute mess about
that's what we all get when Amy just
literally like woke up a little bit ago
but yesterday I really did I really had
a hard time and when I went to bed last
night I told myself you have two choices
Amy when you open your eyes tomorrow
morning if you get the pleasure to open
your eyes tomorrow morning you can
either allow somebody in something in
some situation to be a breaking point
for you or you can make that situation
make you stronger and choose to not
allow these things to affect your life
not allow these things to affect your
family and continue doing what you know
that you're passionate about and that
you want to do and you know this morning
when I woke up I was like no I'm not
gonna allow anything or anybody to make
what I do at the end of the day
enjoyable to something that I am
allowing to control my ability to make
through the day and you guys I am still
receiving emails from this certain
person and I'm still receiving empty
threats
from this person this person seriously
has like literally lost their marbles
first of all not once since bringing
this to your guys's attention have I
said who it is what it is if it's a male
or a female anything that they're going
to turn this video are the video see I'm
still talking about it because it's an
empty threat you know first and foremost
I this person doesn't know that
Ollie was a lawyer for many years
we know the laws we know what's right
and what's not okay and maybe he didn't
practice here he went and he did do a
lot of studying because he was going to
try and get his license here in the
United States but then as we really got
talking about it it just wasn't
something he really enjoyed um so much
as he really truly enjoys owning his own
business and doing a marketing that's
what my husband enjoys but he has a
Bachelor in law he does and you know
yeah he has a Bachelor in law for Egypt
but majority of a lot of the laws
they're under the same umbrellas so I
know that something this simple is
something that he would know the answers
to and if it he doesn't know the answers
to it
because he did a lot of studying with
throughout from since becoming a citizen
here he made a lot of friends and so we
have friends that do work in the law
industry so all what this person did was
send me empty threads because here I'm
still talking about it because I'm not
doing anything wrong I am not doing
anything wrong whatsoever and you know
but it did definitely take up a good
amount of my time yesterday that I
cannot get back
I cannot take back the time and the
energy that I spent on this certain
individual when I should have been
putting that time and energy on
something so much more worth it but at
the end of the day I was allowing it to
affect me and that's not okay not okay
so I woke up this morning and I got that
email and I was like you know what no no
we are not gonna start with this again
today not at all here's my replay back I
replied back very kindly
although if this person is truly that
obsessed with me they could go and make
a fake account and come right back you
know as an empty dog which okay and you
know but sadly it really has gotten to
the point where it's like you know I
really have to I don't have to watch
what I say and do because I don't I
don't do anything harmless I are harmful
I don't I don't speak ill of people I
don't I don't do that because I don't
play the game I don't have time for it
you know and not like I told this person
when this person brought up other
YouTube channels and things like that
I was simply like know what goes on with
their channel that is their beef it has
nothing to do with me everybody that has
beef within each other that is there
that that's for you guys just because
one has beef doesn't mean I have to have
beef beef with somebody because it's not
how I play game i I don't I don't have
time for it that's just childish that's
Kenny garden work and I don't have the
time for that um you know the when when
I started YouTube and as I still
continue to do YouTube I do it because
it is a passion of mine in it something
that I enjoy and I will not allow
someone to take that join or that
passion away from me by making my life a
living hell because of what they are
going through this person I think has a
lot of issues okay I have one child told
me she farted and I have another one
banging their cars apiece
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yes we will sing happy birthday in a
little bit okay let's go out please and
go watch cartoons okay if you guys
haven't noticed it is Omar's birthday
today I got a four year old
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so anyways I'm not gonna let this person
take away the joy that I have within
what I do because they're suffering
themselves you know so it's all empty
threats that's what it comes down to but
it definitely took more time away than I
wanted it to yesterday I allowed it to
control my I allowed it to have too
much of my time that I'm not willing to
give again so anyways that is why I did
not vlog yesterday and that's why I'm
coming to you guys this morning because
I didn't get to have that enjoyment
yesterday because I was just too
preoccupied so for anybody because I
know a few people bought this book I'm
just gonna tell you that I am on January
7th 2019 Monday clearly like I still do
it every single day so for today's
routine see what it's about today I
choose to no longer dread Mondays I will
look forward to them as an opportunity
to start afresh to love deeply to
forgive completely to laughs joyfully
and to live mindfully Wow let's read
that one more time today I choose to no
longer dread of Mondays I will look
forward to them as opportunities to
start afresh to love deeply to forgive
completely to laughs joyfully and to
live mindfully that is spot-on with what
we need to hear with everything going on
with our Channel right now when I say
our Channel it's because it is our
channel what affects me affects you guys
what effects you guys affects me like we
are a team in that's what I love about
this channel and that's what I love
about all of you guys is that we are
like a big community of amazing great
supportive friends and so when one is
hurting we all are hurting when one is
going through something I feel like we
all are going through something because
we all can come together and be like hey
I am you know struggling with X Y & Z
and I just find all of us jumping on
those comments and showing such great
compassion and support and encouragement
and everything above and beyond so when
this you know this is being said it's so
true that you know let's not dried and
dried up Mondays let's not dread the
fresh start to a new week because as I
love Mondays I love Mondays because
mondays are a fresh new week and that is
so true it is a fresh new start to a new
week to make things different but you
know what every day that can be the same
the same thing it can be you know
Mondays Wednesdays Fridays every day is
a new fresh start and a new fresh day so
whether it's a Monday or it's any day
during the week every day is a new day
that you wake up that you can make
different and you know to be honest with
you this last week I've really like I've
just been just really struggling
emotionally I've just been really having
a hard time and I can't really pinpoint
what's going on so much but and it could
be a little bit of all this other stuff
going on with this email battle going
back and forth and you know because I
the problem is with me and this is where
I get myself into sometimes trouble is
no matter how bad someone can be no
matter how mean they can be matter how
mean someone can say something I always
show compassion
Mack I will never get nasty back I will
never fight back I'm not that type of a
person I'm not gonna kick you when
you're down even though you try and kick
me when I'm down
I just don't work that way and so for me
it's like you know I I do my ultimate
best to always remember that there is a
line that has to be drawn between
friendship and relationships and
everything in between but I think this
week I kind of allowed more to get to me
than need be and I feel like I've kind
of got that attitude this week of foods
been my friend and I'm struggling this
week with my eating I really have um I
feel like I've been more lenient on the
things that I probably shouldn't be
lenient on I've noticed that I've
snacked more than I should have sin act
my choices of snacks have been very poor
I just feel like I could be doing so
much better and right now I just I'm not
and I know that's a and why I'm sharing
this with you guys is because I share
everything with you guys when it comes
to this because this is our journey you
know most a lot of you have been there
since day one and some have just joined
my journey but no matter what you all
deserve to have the truth and you know
this is a journey it's not temporary so
I know that there's gonna be days and
months and years that I go through this
but I don't want it to allow me to get
into a rut where it just continues I
need to find what what's the bottom
problem so that I can change things
around as I don't want to continue on
you know a lot of times I was taking a
shower last night and I was thinking to
myself you know I said you know here's
here's the thing is normally when I
would get in a situation like this this
is when I
like oh forget it and I would just go
completely back to my old old patterns
old ways of coping with my stress and my
you know emotional issues that I'm going
through I would go back but that's I
know that something that has
significantly changed in my heart
because I don't want to go back I don't
want to go back to using food to cope
with my problem I've made a very healthy
relationship with food and I don't want
to make that go bad because life isn't
going the way that I thought it should
be going right now so you know and I
haven't drank soda since July and so
it's like okay now if I would crack a
soda open right now and I would start
drinking it you better believe that my
whole journey would just be gone I would
totally have just thrown it all in the
garbage can but I'm not I'm not that
direction like that's not what I'm doing
and that's not what I'm trying to do but
I'm just really struggling emotionally
with my with my eating this week and I
think it's because usually I allow food
to be my coping mechanism and although I
kinda am I'm doing it cautiously because
I'm aware of what's going on around me
and I'm aware that I'm using the food as
my car as my coping and so I just have
to get my mindset back in its fresh ways
um you know I had I seen two different
comments when someone said oh no are you
not gonna be doing your weight loss
journey anymore sharing it absolutely
not I will be continuing to share my
weight loss journey like that's the main
thing that I am working on right now is
my weight loss and not just my weight
loss but the reason that my weight is
the way it is and why it is and how it
came about and everything in between I
still do my weight I still will do my
weigh ins I still do all of my stuff
like it's I haven't
doing anything that I started the only
difference is is that I've added to my
channel I just haven't you know I
haven't taken anything away
other than the clothing shopping halls
yes I have taken those away because I'm
not going to do those right now to me I
think it would be kind of pointless to
do those but yeah for the most part I do
you know I do everything still the same
as I had before another person said you
know I do notice that you haven't tux
mmm so much about your weight and things
like that and I apologize if I haven't
um I guess because I just get you know
so occupied with like you know books and
you know different topics that I forget
sometimes you know but it's definitely
not something that's gone by the
wastebasket it's not you know just
because I haven't brought it up doesn't
mean I'm not working on it I am working
on it and I will try and start
remembering to show you guys what I'm
eating and things like that um because
this one person in particular was like
you know I I loved seeing what you were
eating and what Ollie would cook you and
you know I haven't seen that for a while
and I miss it and that's true you know I
have it but I guess because I get in
such a busy pattern of life I just sit
down I shove my food and I get back up
and I continue on doing what I was doing
so definitely I will try and do my best
to start showing you guys more of what
I'm eating or what all these cooked for
me still Wayans are the same as they've
been from day one which is Saturday
mornings I weigh in you guys will see it
on Sundays uh-huh this week I am not
holding my breath for anything because
like I said this week I have struggled
I'm not gonna be here to beat around the
bush or d'lai I struggled this week and
I'm gonna be the first to say that I
have struggled this week so you know
what there might be a game and I'm not
gonna beat myself up for it because you
know what I'm human I'm going through a
lot emotionally right now and I just
little by little I'm gonna make it
through I'm gonna make it I'm not you
know I'm not a victim to this and you
know that's one key word that this crazy
the email said was you know you make
yourself out to always be the victim
yeah I do sometimes because you know
what this is my channel and it's my
journey that I'm speaking about and
sadly I have been a victim for a very
long time however I've also made it very
clear that the victim I used to be I am
no longer and I'm actually a survivor of
everything that has happened to me and I
take what I have gone through and use it
for all the life things that I face now
and that I will for the live the rest of
my life
so yes at one time I was a victim but
I'm no longer the victim I am a survivor
and I I will proudly hold that title
that I was a victim I was I'm not now
but I was and you know what I am still a
victim to food sometimes darn it I it
still carries me sometimes and it's
still you know sometimes I still think
that food helps me even though I know it
doesn't but it does in its own sick ways
but it's just life it is just life and
that's right now where I'm at so anyways
I wanted to apologize that I did not do
my vlog yesterday but you guys get to
see me today and I will start my vlog
today for tomorrow and I really am just
hoping and praying you guys are all
having amazing week you guys mean so
much to me I have had so many amazing
amazing messages and people reaching out
to me and I just love it I love it
so just you guys keep doing you I'm
gonna keep doing me we're not gonna let
these little things put a bump in our
road of our channel because it's just
not it's just not worth it it really is
not you guys are all too amazing to pay
the consequences for a person that is
not very happy with themselves so
anyways with that you get off of my cup
I had an ant on my cup
if you know me you know that I can't
Lance and I don't know why they keep
coming I'm in my robe I've taken and I
spray it and I do everything and these
dang things won't go away um anyways I
hope you guys having a wonderful
wonderful day today I am absolutely
blessed to have each and every one of
you guys with me on my channel through
my journey and continuing to gain the
most amazing people because like I said
you guys are amazing and I will check in
with you guys today and a little bit I'm
gonna get up take a shower and get
dressed for the day and then I will
check in with you guys but I just want
to let you guys know you guys are all
special in your each and every own
particular way and thank you so much for
standing firm with me and continuing to
show me the support and encouragement
that I desperately need and I will check
in with you guys soon wanna talk to you
in a little bit bye bye
